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Been a While…a LONG delayed *update*

OK, so I admit it’s been FAR too long for an update, though I do have VERY good reasons!

As I mentioned in an earlier post, my mother was also dealing with cancer.  Her breast cancer “came back” after 19 years, stage 4, in Novemeber of last year.  She fought it hard for 6 months, but eventually, her heart gave out (during her original cancer treatment 19 years ago, the chemo & radiation treatments caused permanent heart damage.  They put in a pace maker about 10 years ago to help, but it only brought her “capacity” or pumping ability to just under 50%).

Anyhow, long story short, on Wednesday, May 9, 2012 Mom died of congestive heart failure.  The chemo treatments were too much for her heart.   She was only 63.  She was adamant about not being left on life support, so they first removed her pacemakers’ defribulator & they told us she would live another week at most, though she’d be in pain.  The doctor also told us that she had chemicals going into her IV to help “pump” her heart or the muscles, whatever.  Given she would be in pain for that last week & her desire NOT to be left on life support, we decided to honor her request & have them stop the drugs going into her IV.

At that point, I held her left hand & talked to her while my brother Jason held her right hand & she passed in literally 20 minutes.  It was difficult to say the least, as I was very close to my mother.  And she was young at 63.  And she had successfully “beaten” it the first time & we thought she would beat it this time.  But she’s in a better place, so we KNOW she’s better off.  Though I miss her IMMENSELY and think about her daily.

Treatment Day 29…

Well, after today we sit at 1 week left of treatments, so I’m eagerly looking forward to that.

Slept OK last night…seemed to go to sleep right away & slept through most of the night, which is better than I have been doing.   Not really sure why, but I can’t complain.

Went to my radiation treatment as usual & then had blood work done in preparation for chemo.  No issues with my chemo other than my arm continues to be sore where my pick line is.  The skin is getting raw & irritated where they place tape over the pick-line to keep it from moving, etc.  Glad there’s only a week left…no sure how much longer I could keep doing this…I’m looking forward to having 4-6 weeks off.  My blood work is OK, but my white & red blood cell counts continue to get lower, which I suppose is normal because of the treatments.

Went home & stopped at Wal-Mart on the way to pick up some planters for the kitchen ledge.  I transplanted the 5-6 temporary pots that I had & re-arranged some others.  Looks good…takes up the entire ledge, but it looks good.

As usual, even that wore me out, so I rested for a bit & then worked the remainder of the day.  Rested again while Dawnette was on her way home & then got a quick dinner for us while we watched some TV together.

Pain: 6